Back to reality….

It’s been nearly a month since my last post. I struggled to write that, then the heartbreaking events of the London Bridge attack, Grenfell Tower tragedy and last night’s mosque attack, topped off with a general election have left me lost for words. 

Nothing seems important or worthy of a post. Why would someone spend their time reading about my ok life when there are people who have lost loved ones, who are homeless or victims of extremist attacks and abuse? 

The world is such a sad place at the moment. As a parent, it’s becoming a scary place I’m not sure I want my children to be part of. But I have to remind myself of the importance of staying positive. I’m doing it for them. 

Is fear winning? 

God, I hate these posts. Paris, Manchester and now another attack in London. As a parent what do I do? 

I always try to stay positive. I’m factual with my son so as not to shelter him, but when two attacks on home soil happen within less than a month of each other it’s so much harder. 

Everyone says we won’t let fear win. But I’ll be honest, fear is creeping in.

I’m becoming fearful of going to busy events.

I’m becoming fearful of the reaction my oldest will have when I tell him I’m going to London in a couple of days.

I’m becoming fearful of catching the tube, or any crowded transport. 

I’m becoming fearful of other people’s divisive talk and racist rhetoric that’s gradually being allowed into our society. 

I’m becoming fearful of how political powers might respond to this rhetoric and the consequences that might follow. 

I’m becoming fearful of letting go of my son’s hand as he gets older and has to navigate the world alone. 

But regardless of my fears, I have to put a brace face on. I have to appear undefeated, unnerved by recent goings on. Because children cannot operate in a world of fear. They have to operate Ina world of positivity and opportunity. Yes they need to understand the challenges and ‘reality’ of the world, but equally they need to have a mindset that fear does not and will not win. 

So whilst fear seems to have crept into my home quietly, my children need to see me close the door on it. 

Ps – I’d love to hear how you stop fear entering your thoughts